Flaahhh rahh rahhh. Buh.

Hi!

It's been awhile since I hurl some verbal diarrhoea here.

All iz good!

It's a new year, and I hope this is the year I make it big and make myself kaya raya saya!

So. The other day I was having a smoke with my boss and he asked me whether this is what I wanted to do. I blabbered something unconvincing along the lines of yeah and I think so.

But I just didn't have the heart to tell him that I inspire to not do anything / goyang kaki (and still be rich).

He will so laugh at me =/ but don't we all. 

Okay, let me tell you why I love my boss.

1. He will shoo me off the office if it gets too late.

2. He buys me cigarettes. Hahahah. I mean, I'm prettttty sure there's something else that I like about him (in regards to working ethics I mean) but wait till it registers in my head.

3. He is cool.

Hmm, some input about my work. Let's see. It's something new. Kinda struggling with it, but it's nothing I cannot cope. I wish I did a little better though. I mean, I picked it up slower than I hoped I would. There's a little language barrier between me and certain parties. My big big client is damn scary and I want to piss in my skirt when I talk to him. But overall it is quite relaxing, as in I either have a lot of free time or a whole lot of busy. Sometimes I wish I have someone to help me whenever I have to split myself in 2, but I also don't want an assistant. My working hours are flexible, sometimes I am pushing it by going in office later than I should, but sometimes I leave office later too. Just the other day I was working with my boss till 4am+ jaga-ing / inspecting the works. Okay I am anyhow rambling here so I guess my bottomline is : I wish I told my boss that I love my job, just that he hired a lazy girl, that's all. O_+

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I guess it's time for New Year's Resolution 2012.

I didn't make any last year because honestly, who sticks to the NY resolutions anyway?

Not I at least.

But here goes anyway : -

1. Exercise! I am leading a very unhealthy life from smoking to drinking to skipping + having irregular meals and smelling petrol and not exercising and shit like that I can feel myself age prematurely. =/ So, I'm juggling between buying running shoes or bicycle. Either I buy the shoes and go running with Chelsea or buy bicycle and ride around my neighbourhood before going to work hohoho so ambitious.

2. Work hard! Recently I asked my heart why it never berkobar-kobar for work. (Didn't get any answer back, if you're wondering.) So now I just need to find the time (read : stop procrastinating) to print pretty pictures of my goals to stick on the wall so when I wake up I will feel more passionate about work. O_+

3. Stop my procrastination! I always always procrastinate and I just need to kick off this bad habit, whether at work or anything at all.

4. Stop worrying and start living! I guess, this will be my ultimate goal. I have always been worrying. What if this, what if that. I am so consumed in my pessimism and thoughts and regrets that I stop knowing how to enjoy my life, and focused and get worked up on the inevitable and unknown. I guess this quote still holds true. 'Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tomorrow.' But in addition to that, I would also like to add some. Work as if you next meal depends on it. Sing as you would in the showers. Dance as if you're drunk. Laugh as if it's the funniest thing you've ever heard. But, don't shop as if you've a billion bucks. Heh.

Okay, I guess that's about it. I need to go shopping work now.